So this weeekend has provided me with answer to give to a question Pascoe will ask me next week for our appointment (if I can hold off that long) ... Lithium needs to be increased or Abilify needs to be added. As well as an anti-depressant and Adderral for the ADHD. 

I'm flying off the handle again at the smallest things and there is no boundary for fantasy and reality. Having to draw the line manually is draining physically and mentally. I'm still very confused in my own house and get lost in my house. That's never happened before, but with this last relapse I had, that began to happen. 

I loose track of time, forget things I just said and there are little piles of stuff everywhere. I'll leave the room and start yelling upon return back into said room at the mess and Nathan reminds me it was me that did it. I just know that I'm ready to get out of this unfamiliar eerie zone and back to reality. I just hope I can get in touch with Pascoe tomorrow. 

Ugh.

Not to mention my stomach is so bloating because I literally can't sit down to even ...you know... so I think that is just what happens to me when I'm sick, but I would love for the pain to be gone. I was 180 when I left hospital, now I'm 190, but seriously it's my bloated stomach. I dare not touch any kind of carbonation beverage at this point.

Here's keeping my fingers crossed I can talk to my pdoc tomorrow and get some meds added to the cocktail for some sanity (for me & for Nathan)