Chaos Is Constant

I spoke with my therapist yesterday at the hospital. I'd not been back since Wed afternoon and no once called me to check in on me, and I was beginning to feel really alone like they don't care and so forth. 

Yesterday morning started off just like any other one around here, lots of commotion and loudness....That's one thing I've got to get control over again, all the noise ..... 

Anyways, it was a morning /afternoon of "Ahh Haa" moments. Nathan ended up having to really discipline Rosie (aka spanking), which made her scream and cry, and in turn Jax began to scream and cry and me well, it just came natural and I began screaming and crying (reminded me of Greg, Dan, Mom & Aunt Susie about the thrift store). 

I couldn't go outside because it was so cold out there, plus all my leggings, panties and socks have gone missing ....hmmmm...... Nathan has been helping me with the laundry and he came clean today stating he indeed put them in a drawer and ave Rosie panties he thought were mine. So nice thanks love, lol! 

Anyways, this morning I awoke to Jax and Rosie being sick. I had to run to Walgreen's right after Nathan got home, only to get to the check out and we had no money in the account. "What's you talking about Willis???" 

Yup, we'd been desperately trying to pay bills since Wed., and every time we try we'd be paged in to referee a fight between Rosie and Jax, or more less Jax being a daredevil (his first name is Nathan) walking around with the fireplace poker....... 

So I get back from Walgreen's and Nathan & I see a ginormous bill that auto paid that we had completely forgotten about!!! We've got it take care of, just weird mornings lately.

 Just reminds that change is always constant and hence so is this damn chaos.

 I must learn how to adapt to these changes and not let them freak me out.