Monday

This weekend was awful, both kids were sick and running fevers and Nathan had to work and I was trying all weekend to get focused to clean the house .......Yea, that just didn't happen. I did manage to finish the taxes, find out we were broke, and take some clothes upstairs.....o and start the dishwasher. I also bathed, so those are big.....

Today I went to PHP, wanting a discharge and since Rosie is sick with what at the time was the flu (it's strep throat) my pregnant therapist sent me home to be with my sick baby. Jax is in Mother's Day Out, and seemed ok when he left, fingers crossed he doesn't have strep as well. The therapist told me I could discharge over the phone, which took a SHIT LOAD of stress off me. Whew!

So as I am driving back home, I feel the strong urge to exit at Rosehill, to see Momma. I hadn't seen my Momma since MLK Day. She didn't recognize me, lol. I told her I had lost weight. I guess she wasn't expecting such a drastic loss. (AKA-When I look in the mirror now I see my 15-16 year old self)

I am tired and relieved now. I'm relieved that I can begin my new journey in individual therapy and go back to Pascoe. My meds are not all balanced yet. I'm currently taking Clonidine .1mg (High blood pressure med that works to stop BP mania anxiety) and Lithium 300 mg (mood stabilizer, very low dose) I need something for my Depression and ADHD still. But that I know can now happen sooner than later due to me graduating to discharge and that feels Amazing!!!!!

I will miss my friends I've made in group, but thankfully this morning we all shared our info and hopefully can remain in constant contact and support for each other. They became a family to me and I will always remember their kind words and in some instances getting up and grabbing me a box of tissues. 

Now it's time for me to grab my own tissues, but to always remember that I can ask for help when I get so overwhelmed it makes me "Act a fool, up in here..." Yup, DMX, that is my theme song, well one of them. 

This is a VERY good song that I use as another them song. I'll end this blog entry with it.