Nap? What's That?

So around 12 today Nathan and I were talking, when the school called and said that release time would remain on time; however, after school activities will be cancelled due to the weather.

So we both make a decision to go ahead and get the kids before it gets worse, cause why, it's not going to get any better peps (6th sense says this last throughout the night, snow so compacted on roadways solid sheets of ice have formed as of 12 today. Nathan didn't even want to go over a bridge, and he's a daredevil in this shit lol) 

We are in the car and I call Pearson to inform them I would like to have Rose ready for me so I can just get her and instead of waiting 15 minutes for them to feel like calling her down, then asking me why she's leaving , and then on, & on & on BS, because after all we're in route to get Jax and then go get her. So I'm informing the office chick what is needed and.....BAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! bitch interrupts me and I just couldn't stop myself ....
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"We don't do what you are asking, we call them down once you are here." 

Ok, ok,  ....so to a normal/well/stable person ..... Those words and the way her voice said them aka sarcasm ... A stable person could've burshed it off, and I've been brushing and a fucking brushing for a fuckin too long, so my "unconscious mind (Yes, there is unconscious mind and that is entire whole blog in itself) said

"Ok, since you were so rude, and interrupted me, im really pissed right now. If you had taken the time to listen, it really was a helpful suggestion, but that's ok, you just don't get it.... And I hung up. 

Now, Nathan is with me and I told him how I felt (I'm still having ID issues with myself which makes it very difficult for me to still have the fantasy/reality barrier issue) (Whole Blog different blog) Not near as bad since Lithium 300 mg 2x's a day and Clonidine .1 mg 3 x's day have regulated in my blood stream, but I am also aware that Rome Wasn't Built In A Day aka,stop beating myself up and putting my brain thru more stress that isn't real. Breath Rebecca ..........

So after the kids, Jax lays down for a nap and Nathan laid down finally. I sat here still trying to get my wires uncrossed so that I could begin to focus. I took a Clonidine .1mg @ 12:45, hoping for the "Xanax" effect it has and I suppose it must have hit, b/c I woke up sitting here 30 min later.

So I laid on the couch, 1st time in a very very very long time, to rest while Rosie was watching Ghost Adventures .................

3:00 pm. ....Yawn, .....What the Hell has happened? I feel like ..... a little better, a little more rested (still got effects from sleep deprivation as well as everything else) ........... I suppose I need to put a nap back in my schedule, lol. I'll reconvene with myself about the naps after a couple of days to see if they are indeed needed.